大约在东京

也不是现在才懂，其实一早就有所领悟。

原来单单只有爱情，真的不够。其实从很小的时候，就已经明白这一点。可是可能是女生的关系，总是希望可以相信“只要有爱情，就可以战胜一切”。是矛盾，还是看太多电影，我也不清楚。

可惜现实生活中有太多需要顾虑。只有爱情的话，恐怕无法维持。谁不想什么都不管，不顾一切的，轰轰烈烈的去爱。但又有多少人真的能办到？

想到当年的快乐，其实很简单。我当初觉得，只要可以睡在你生旁，感受到你的体温和心跳，就足够让我放弃全世界。我一直以为是你的关系，但现在才明白，原来最开心的，是因为当年可以不用思前想后，想做什么就做。五年的差距，让我无法以同样的心态去生活。也想过要很猖狂的去放纵自己，但潜意识还是会想办法去控制自己。告诉自己什么是人生的正馗，不让自己走出这个道路。

可能是年少轻狂，也可能是成长的代价。

还是，我爱的不够。

:(

there are times I wished I had more control over my time and life.. it sucks balls not knowing where will I be in the following month, made it so hard to plan simple stuff like attending friends’ weddings/birthdays. so hard to even want to start picking up a new language because i am not sure whether i will be in the attend classes. when everybody is out and enjoying their weekends i will be working, than i get weekdays off when no one is free, and i will end up being alone at home, doing nothing. this is crap. i want my weekends, i want my public holidays and i want a normal life.

i am extremely frustrated and the itch is not helping at all.

如果能重來 我的答案 會不會更改

仰望風　能帶你回來　仰望雨　能安靜聽完
臉龐　發燙　眼眶　抵抗
不肯讓你離開　丟下我流浪

 

一个人

i cannot describe what im actually feeling tonight.

it feels like i don’t belong here or there.

and tonight im perfectly fine with standing alone here.

Someday i will fall in love in Paris

散步纽约街头 快要吻的时候

一覺　睡到自然醒過來　不管　這個胡鬧時代到底有多壞

Moscow!

Time, can really change alot of things.

我才懂不是我不心痛 其实是心没了感受

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在 让我更寂寞

一邊笑得瘋了 一邊哭得累了 判若 兩人

一邊溫馴愛著 一邊激烈恨著 心能有幾顆

Misery Bear

Damn, this is cute and sad at the same time. Reminds me of my dog, whom I miss very very much. I could cry just thinking about him. Hope he’s well and he will come home soon

on a light note, I am going to London next month, and this misery bear is so adorable I’d be his friend anytime since I am alone too.